She Loves Smiles: little words

I have something for you:

Sometimes in life we feel this annoying, pushy feeling, that’s telling us we are wasting our life. It’s not just a suspicion, it’s because we are wasting our life. We have this guilty feeling telling us: ‘I know I’m better than what I’m portraying myself to be, I’m bound to do something more than this.’

It’s about taking yourself more seriously. The world around us will take you more seriously, if you’ll take yourself seriously. And I’m not saying, taking yourself more seriously in an ego kind of way.

It’s funny to me, that our deepest fears are not found in the darkness, but are actually hidden in the great potential we have. Not the darkness, but the light scares us. And we, as human beings, being afraid as we are, of our own greatness, we don’t GO for it.

We are afraid other people around us will pull us down. But let me tell you something, if you really GO for it, there will always be people that are going to be sceptic about you and will pull you down. There’s always a risk of failure. If you really go for it in life, there are no guarantees of success,

But if you DON’T, I can tell you what you can be guaranteed, that icky feeling deep down in your heart: ‘I’m not going to do that, no, I’m not doing it, I know there’s something more better out there for me, but I’m not making any steps.’

This feeling, this sticky, pushy, annoying feeling, that’s making you feel exhausted, will never end, unless you are able to say: ‘I am going to turn my back on living a limited life, and I’m at least going for a life that’s lived to the very fullest.’ And with walking side by side with God, I will make it through.


tell me, what are you unnecessarily scared of?



cylia loves smiles

She Loves Smiles: little words

I have something for you:

today I'm going to write my little words beginning with the basics again.. What got us here today? What or who made us feel loved? Who are we?

through all our struggles, through all our hate, through all our emotions, through all our love, we always seem to say: 'I can't help it, that is just the way I am.' In some kind of way we can't help it, because of the fact we are human beings.

we are human beings, as in: humanity is insecure, which is another word for fear, fear is caused by the main fact human long for being accepted and we will be accepted through love and love comes back to God: God is love.

We can't do anything about being a victim of circumstances that may occure, but we can choose if we want to stay a victim.

Sometimes we do not realize how much we've weakened through all our years on this very planet and might not see how much damage we have caused to others or ourselves. It's always like we know better, but we do worse.. we just expect God to do magic..

When believing in God, it does not mean He can make away all of our negative experiences, but we can walk by his side! You will succeed.

Another thing is: why are we resistant to God?
Let me ask you: Is God good? Does God speaks the truth? Does God radiates only positivity? Does God gives us what we want (when obeying the right rules)?
The answer in the back of your head might go immidiately to a Yes.
Then why are you resistant then?
you know what, we are just afraid to lose control..
lose control over whatever happends, whenever, wherever.

When we fail in whatever what happends in our lives, we must know that it is not God's purpose to let us fail, but it takes somewhat to succeed..

God understands us.

If we have problems, secrets, things that make us feel ashamed.. don't hide it. Because this is exactly what Satan wants us to do.. keep it save somewhere locked up in our minds, keep our masks on.. Think about how much it will hurt you: the only one suffering is you.
What about: admit your problems and ask for help.

We are human and God is good.. we are not bad, but vulnerable.

I mean, why not listen to the words of God? What is a couple of years of a life of enternity?? (which you will get when believing in our saviour) Bow to God when you are asked to bow to someone else.

It's not our fault the world is dirty and we are vulnerable..

We are the dirty ones, but He has the power to clean us. Go start running to God and not from God. Whenever you made a confession last week, last week confession does not do anything for today's sin. Self-control is an example of something that you see in us; how God lives in us.

A lot of people struggle with shame.. and this will effect the relationship with God. and in times like these, it's easier to know that God is by our side. Our goal is always self-control.. It's not all about that you stumble and fall, but that you get up and don't give up.
And it's not to get rid of the problem, but how you manage it.

He's a good Father and we are right to ask.

Wishful thinking is not what Christianity is about..

when things are going slow.. don't be unpatient.. it took us 20 years to be 20 years or it took 40 years to be 40.. you get the point.. it could not go any faster.

It's also like being a parent, you can get mad at your daughter or get irritated, but she can not make you love her more.. She might never know how much you love her.
Until she gets her own children and comes back running to you: 'Ohh, now I get it!'

You know, what we see as right or wrong, is different with each and one of us.. Our perception of the world is our reality.. We might not always know what we need, but God knows Everything.

When in times of grieve, or sadness, confusion or any negativity don't go dig deep when you don't know it for sure, wait until it's clear. Because you will come to ridiculous conclusions..

He is good and wants us to be clean and not full of poison.

Oh, and if something did not happen yet, we should keep our heads help up high, because yet is a very important word..

And when God touched us, we start to think: 'And now you go start to touch me, after I've gone through all these negative things?' But you know what, now, maybe ten years later you have gotten so much more and you have experienced so much other things.. you would not have this if you would've gone through another path.

We are hunger for love.. someone who's really hungry, even the bitter thing will taste good. So many people settle for less.. For example: have lots of sex with different people, to feel loved..
but we do not just want that kind of love, we really want someone to put his arm around us and say everything will be ok.

But what is love? we immidiately think about passion, the feeling, sex etc. But the word 'Love' is overused.. because we love our dog, we love swimming, we love travelling, we love our mom, we love this and that.. To love someone/something is to value it..

Value humanity, your neighbour, value someone else how you would like to be valued.
Because if you don't: whenever you will be alone, depressed and feel not okay and experienced negative things, you might not be valued by a specific someone in your life, or get help at all, because you did not valued another..

We want to be accepted.. we have a mask on.. We have to accept the fact that people will always be sceptic about us.. We should not worry if we would take our masks off.. we immidiately think: 'if people knew the worst of me, will they still love me??'

But you know what?
God knows all your secrets, all your flaws, but God still loves you!
He rather haves you messy than not at all.

We have to know that we are already accepted by God, we don't have to be perfect and then run to God. Thank you Jesus, that you value us.

we are happy with the ones who are happy, and we grieve with the ones who grieve.. we don't always do that in this generation.. as I already told: human beings feel insecure. Satan then gets a hold on our jealousy and envy.. we try to get what other have.. but God will not give you what others have.. You can fail if you envy other people.

If someone is happy, but to you it's already old news about the reason he/she is happy, still share this happiness with him/her, because this specific person may just come out of a very harsh period.. you never know. We value other people, because He valued us first.

And what about: 'But it's not fair! She/He gets way more than what I get!' God has no favourites.. or don't you believe Him?

There are no words to make pain stop, but we can put our arms around them to help..
Why? Because we value them.

In a world of pain, we sometimes doubt our values and if we put our arm around someone and see their pain, we will value them: isn't that beautiful?

We don't have to go back..
because we got something way bigger and way better! Let's celebrate life!

thank you.



cylia loves smiles

She Loves Smiles: little words

I have something for you:

When you just feel like giving up.. Remember your goals for this year!


When we experience something negative in life, we are mostly put in circumstances we just somehow can't let go off. But, what's to be remembered is that we do not need to blame the circumstances.. We, as human beings, are extremely fragile: for either emotional damage or physical damage. And as we are sucked in a world image of a perfect couple, a perfect home, a perfect life and this and that, we, as very fragile human beings, can be totally off guard by this all.


Things get even more complicated, when we try to compare ourselves to others to make us look better. For example: someone is completely confused about another someone who can't seem to get out of a dilemma. That's because if we look at others, we usually do not oversee the details, but when we look at ourselves, we oversee so many important details. it's kind of ridiculous.


And why? It's because our pride and ego can be in the way of our real view of life. We need to understand that the negative thoughts in our minds are nothing but an illusion. And as we live in a world that's full of illusions, we then start to believe in these. We think we know.. but we have no idea..




I would like to ask a lot of people if they are genuinely happy, because most of the people are not.
and that makes my heart just crush.
Don't you just understand how beautiful you really are?



I would love to ask a whole bunch of people if they are completely themselves, whenever they walk on the streets.
Don't we just get all tired of being so tense all the time?
Don't we just get all tired of constant wanting to know what others think of us?
Don't we just get all tired of being someone we are actually not?


We CAN be ourselves,

We CAN be beautiful and cool at the same time without being someone we are not,
We CAN be popular without being rude or slightly arrogant,

We CAN put on our genuine smiley faces without hiding it.


you are so wonderful..


Maybe even start every morning, looking into the mirror and say: 'I am beautiful.'
or whatever secret you have, go to a painful past, for a weight that has to be lifted up.
(think of: 'I can be cool without my mp3 on', 'I am beautiful without make-up', 'I am sexy.')


And as we think of people in the very past, who had no Television, who had no Computer, who had no toilet in their own home or think of people who have very little money, who have experienced a genocide in Rwanda, who have experienced very horrific things and then think of your own situation. What's the fuss about? We really should be ashamed of how much we complain everyday, and even with all the money in the world or not even money, but all the opportunities in the world we still manage to play the victim role. It's sad.


We are never, never doomed to any icky situation you may caught yourself in. These are just circumstances we experience, and some circumstances may not come in handy at all, and some do, but then again, most of the circumstances never come in handy. It's always this or that to blame. We always seem to blame something or someone else. 'Oh, it was my sister who didn't come on time,' 'No, I couldn't run fast because my pants were wet,' 'I wasn't ready, because my dad forgot my lucky teddybear.'


We are eventually the ones, who will make our own decision. Do not blame the circumstance.
We get to choose in our lives, where we have to actually choose between the good and the bad.
And yes, we do mostly choose the bad one.
Why? It's because we live in fear all the time. We let ourselves be controlled by our fear and this world of media makes us feel even more pushed.

And sure we, as fragile human beings, make mistakes. We all do.
but that's alright, as long as you don't dwell on your mistakes and faults.
Do not dwell on your negativity: what's past is past.
It doesn't mean we can't think about the past, but don't over do it.
The only thing that's important about the past is the love you've been given and the love you've given. The negative part of our past: is to be forgiven.


And more about the forgiving part: mostly, we do not need to forgive another person, but we forget, that the person we need to forgive the most: is ourselves.
We tend to forget ourselves more than we forget others.
So begin to work on yourself and grow from there.



to know we are worth it,

to know we are more loved than we will ever know,

to know we are as equal as everybody else,

to know we are love.


love one another, and be there for everyone else, but never forget: be there for yourself also.
Nothing is harder than to love someone, when you do not even loved yourself first.



So the next time you sit in a train, waiting in a line or are waiting somewhere else do not feel uncomfortable: we are one, and we are so equal, if only we would know this. We are not strangers from eachothers. We do not divide people into groups or stereotypes, how blind can we be? We are again, then, living in an illusion.


It's really funny to see, when people play a victim role, when there's really no need to. It's kind of making a little fool out of yourself. Waste of our energy. And it's somehow so funny to see, when people are completely isolated in this illusion of things Men created. Don't make a fool out of yourself, because you are so much better than that.


Be free, once again.


Look at that picture when you were six..
where's that innocence? where did you go?


Do not be a victim of this society,
choose to be a hero,
choose to be happy.


It's not hard.. we just make it hard..





cylia loves smiles

She Loves Smiles: little words

I have something for you:

We have one life and why not live your life to the very fullest? When you have the opportunities, try and make something out of it. Sometimes we think that we have to seek for our own happiness and have to seek for God. But that’s where it’s misunderstood. It’s already there, He is already here. We just have to be a landing place, where everything can land in our life. Choose to be free and choose to be happy, my friend.

It might be hard in the beginning, but when we do, we feel so much more alive and we do not have to worry about, really, unnecessary things like: have to have the newest clothes, tanning, watch in everything that can reflect ourselves, get drunk because we don’t dare to go on the dance floor without alcohol, put on too much make-up, get nervous when we see someone that’s perfect according to the media, get nervous because we come across types of people we dislike, buy or look into every fashion magazine that’s in the store, to look good in every picture that’s taken of us, to have lenses instead of glasses because we don’t want to look dorky, walk very fast whenever we are in a place that’s making us feel a little bit uncomfortable, hate things/persons because we know it reminds us of something/someone that didn't make us feel ok, make pictures where we show more of us than we should with the intention that guys/girls will like us more, get nervous around famous people, be loud/rude because we want attention, pose a certain way whenever pictures are taken of us, wanting to know what others think of us, and just, be in fear all the time and have the urge of being someone we are not.

Tell me, do you have a ‘secret’?


cylia loves smiles

i'm leaving my fingerprints..

see my fingerprints..

I have been down so low that people looked at me, and they knew.
nobody could read my p-p-p-pokerface muh muh muh muh..
with friends and lovers who come and go,
I've tried so hard to understand, but I can't, I held the world out in my hands and they ran away..
It was like a bad day that never ended I felt the chaos around me,
Too many tears have had to fall, don't they know I'm so tired of it all..
I was losing my balance on the tight rope, tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...
If I ever would feel better?
and then I closed myself from the world..
Well I thought they were just evil..
They're just some racists,
Who couldn't tie my laces..
Their point of view is medevil!
(Fuck you, fuck you very, very much. Cuz we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew.. So please don't stay in touch)
Act like you can't tell who made this.. New gospel homey, take six, and take this, haterssss...
but i know that God put you in front of me, so how the hell could you front on me?
noww that that don't kill me, can only make me stronger!
work it harder, make it better. dot it faster, makes us stronger...
You think you got it all worked out.
But you dont know nothing, nothing, nothing
You think that you could rub me out,
But I'm made of something, something, something
I could teach you a thing or two (Yeah oh yeah oh)
I could teach you a thing or two (Yeah oh yeah oh)
blabber on I blabber on, stare empty at a wall and make it try to sing along..
carry on I carry on.
But I have this dream right inside of me, I'm gonna let it show,
it's time to let everybody know..
This is REAL! This is ME!
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now..
gonna let the light shine on me!

discover your own fingerprints..

cylia loves smiles


p.s. yes, 90 precent of the sentences are from lyrics of music artists (james morrison - wonderful world, lady gaga - pokerface, paramore - all we know, phoenix - if i ever feel better, lily allen - guess who batman, kanye west - stronger, luciana - yeah yeah, girl in a coma - their cell, demi lovato - this is me)